Random thoughts

Friendships are a strange and sensitive thing, at least for me it seems. As a kid growing up I was always surrounded with people, I had a lot of friends. It was kind of in stages I guess. There were the normal "groups" in middle school and into highschool and then college. It's strange to me sometimes the way our lives connect and overlap with others and then can so abruptly do an about face as if the friendship never existed. 

There is a group of girls I grew up with, played softball with, was in brownies &girl scouts  with, and shared my life with that have all managed to stay together and connected through college and now into our adult years. When I read posts or see pictures of these "reunions" that happen every so often I get quite sad a always feel a little hurt.  I've never quite felt like I belong anywhere, with any certain group of people.  Most days I am perfectly happy with that, but on days like today it tugs on my heart a little to not have that kind of long life connection with anyone. Now don't get me wrong, my best friend Lauren is the bestest of best friends and I love her more than anything, but our friendship began in our adult years, so we have PLENTY of good stories and even better memories, but not that "oh do you remember in second grade when.." And sometimes when you run across a picture of the "old crew" in highschool or at a softball tournament you wonder if life would be different if those people were still in your life like they are for each other. 

I'm sounding rather whiney tonight & that's not my intention, so until I can collect my thoughts more clearly..